Wishful thinking...

Thanks to Diary of a Fat Mommy's blog post today!  It really got my juices flowing!

I've been sitting here the past month it feel like wishing I had:

• Lost more weight
• Exercised more
• Ate better food choices
• Had chosen a different haircut
• Played more with Drake
• Kept my house cleaner

I can wish, wish, wish, all I want, but that doesn't actually DO anything.

And then I found this quote on Pinterest and yup, it pretty much sums it up for me right now.  

I'm spending so much on WISHING I'd done things, that it's taking away from time when I can actually DO THEM!

Part of my problem is planning.  

For some reason, I love to have this pretty little plan organized.  I guess it's the control freak in me...ugh!

But life has been very VERY UNPLANNED lately.  Crazy shit going on, ya'll!! 

But then I read how other mom and dad's still manage to get a work out in.  And let's be real here...

I watch Supernatural while on lunch and really, I can eat a sandwich in like 10-15 minutes and then workout or walk or at least MOVE for the next 30-45 minutes.  I just choose NOT to do it.

So, guess what folks!!  As Amy from Diary of a Fat Mommy said 'Shits Getting Real'!

I got nowhere to be early in the AM other than out on the track busting my ass to Couch 2 5K, week 4, day 2.  And I KNOW I can jog for 5 minutes at a time.  I'm pretty sure if I made myself do it, I could probably jog a whole mile straight.  

Oh which brings up another thing...

Guess who FINALLY signed up for her 5K?!?!

THIS GIRL!!  

Graffitti Run in STL - October 6 

Since it's my first 5K and I have no idea what to expect, other than people throwing color at me, I'm just hoping to jog roughly 2/3 of it.  If I can run 2 miles of it, I will be a very happy camper.  So, if I want to meet that goal....I gots to get my shit together!  ASAP!!!

Also - want to jog/run with me?!?!  Join my team - Tickeled Pink!  (the word tickeled looks so strange to me)

For those peeps out there that are awesome planners, what'd you do to fit workouts in?  What motivated you?  Hit me up with your tips!

I feel pretty!

I feel silly admitting this, but I do not feel pretty on a normal day-to-day basis?

Is this normal?  Do other women, girls, ladies feel like this?

I did, however, have a great moment while visiting Atlanta, GA a couple weeks ago. 

I had just gotten my hair chopped off and was feeling kinda antsy about it.  Of course a lot of people freaked when I mentioned I wanted to go short again, but I just knew I wanted to do it.  Plus, I'm stubborn as hell.  I get an idea in my head and I don't stop until I do it or get it.

Anyway, I love my haircut, but since my pregnancy my hair has gotten a ten time more curly!  So if I don't actually take the time to style my short hair, I kinda look like a lunatic.  No joke there.  I really do look crazy - like bad 70's hair or some shit.  Also, the curly-short hair look reminds me of old-lady hair.  I.DO.NOT.WANT.OLD.LADY.HAIR!!!!!

But something happened on that magical Saturday getting ready for the wedding.  I put styling mousse in my hair that morning, it got a little wavy, but not in a little, old lady kind of way.  Before the wedding I straightened it and slapped on a little eye makeup and lip gloss and guess what.

I felt PRETTY!

I was messing around with Sprout at the wedding and took a selfie and was like WHO WAS THAT?!?!  

I, for once in my life, looked put together.  And I did it all by myself.  No one did it for me.  I felt younger and I felt GOOD.  

So then I was all like whoa--I better take more pictures in case this doesn't happen again!!

We went to the wedding photo booth.

Thank HNM Photo - https://www.facebook.com/HnmPhotobooths

I love the second picture of me from the photo booth.  It pretty much sums up how I felt that night.

Today, as I'm writing this, feel pretty again.  I've recreated the hair do and my skin looks glowing!

NOTE:  I AM NOT PREGNANT.  Just because a woman's skin glows, does NOT immediately mean she's carrying a baby.  

I swear that since I've started working out way back in June, my skin is infinitely better.  I guess I am drinking more water and that's helping AND the fact that I am not chomping down on McNuggets 24/7.  It's seriously night and day.  

I'm so excited to be on the weight loss path again.  Do you ever notice how much YOUNGER a person looks when they lose weight?  It's like it shed the years off them too!  Not that I feel I look old, but I want to look youthful and not like a couch potato.  I want to continue this 'I feel pretty' phase.  

So ladies (and gents, I suppose too), do you feel pretty today?  If not, why?  For me, it's always been about my hair.  I swear in high school, I would have been a foxy lady if I'd just gotten a decent hair cut and someone would have taught me how to actually style it.  I'm so going to find some high school pics and scan them for you this week.

  

Re-Start!

Well, I haven't posted anything in a long time!  Shame on me!

Life got super busy and honestly, my time was so limited that I couldn't find time to write a post.  Oh sure, I could have written something on my phone, but darn it - it's hard on that tiny screen!

Here's a little recap of what's been going on...

• My mom is now scheduled for her mastectomy in late August.  So long as everything goes as intended, NO chemo or radiation.  Woot!
• My mom also was in the hospital last weekend due to her COPD - that was a super crazy, wild weekend!
• I didn't work out for nearly 3 weeks!  Shame on me!  But my back is TONS better and my nasty cough/cold has pretty much gone away.  
• Our Dave Ramsey budget is going fabulously!!  We've paid off 2 credit cards this month.  And it's amazing to see just how much we spent on JUNK.  Absolute JUNK!!
• Baby Sprout can now roll over from his tummy to his back and can sit up like a champ!  He's 6 months now!  How exciting!!
• Jake has been a studying fool.  He's got final exams and last minute papers to write.  This means I help him study, become his proofreader, and help keep Drake happy so Daddy can get his school work done.  

And that pretty much brings you up to speed.  

What I am most proud about is that during that time, I've managed to NOT gain any weight and lose a couple pounds too.  I need to hop on the scale and get an official number and take some pictures!  

Oh!  And I finallllllllly worked out again.  I think I was so scared I'd be back to square one that I was avoiding my Couch to 5K program with every fiber of my being.  I am supposed to be on week 7 by now, but still on week 4.  Anyway, last night I had my parents watch Sprout so I could see how bad I was.  

I redid a day from week 3 just to kind of ease myself back into the grove of walking/jogging.  And guess what!  I didn't suck!!!  Was it still challenging?  Yes, but no more than it usually is so I was thrilled that my body didn't revert back to day one.  Tomorrow I will continue with week 4 and I'm feeling really good again.  

Stay tuned for Monday's post - I feel pretty!

I'm back in action!

Seems like it's been forever since I've blogged!!

A lot has happened since then so I'll try to make it as short as possible.

Went to ATL, came home, the end.

Ha, okay I'll give you more details than that...

Jake, Sprout and I were going to Athens, GA to watch one of my husband's great friends get married.  I was excited!!!  Totally pumped!  Our first family vacation!  I had it perfectly planned.

Which as soon as I said I had it perfectly planned, it pretty much meant it was shot to shit.

Friday, we were to fly out at 930am.  Now, being that we've never flown with a baby before, we got to the airport extra early.  We were comfortably sitting at our gate at 8am.  At about 830am, we realized our flight was delayed by 45 minutes...which ended up turning into a roughly 4 hour delay.  This also meant we'd be landing smack dab in the middle of Friday night, rush-hour traffic in Atlanta, GA.  NOT MY CUP OF TEA!  Bye-bye, oh so perfect plan!

I will give the Delta crew credit; I've never seen a plane be boarded, up in the air, and then taxi'd to a gate in Atlanta so fast.  Bless them for trying to hurry it up!

Sprout did freaking awesome.  Plane didn't bother him a bit.  I, however, had the cold from hell and my nose would NOT.STOP.RUNNING!!!

Once we got to Atlanta, minus the traffic and a little oops with the Maps app on the iPhone, we were on our way to Athens, GA.  Sprout did terrific but once we were in the hotel room, he was ready to not be held, sitting, or messed with in any other fashion.  That boy wanted to play!

Saturday I woke up feeling much better.  We did our thing in Athens and went to the wedding.  I had a ton of fun and it was beautiful!  Totally what I thought a picture perfect Southern wedding would look like.  And there was a photo booth!  Score!

My skin looks great in those photos!

Anyway, I digress.  

Flight back home was fine, but we were certainly tired by then.  My cold had come back for revenge and all I wanted was some damn Qdoba nachos.  Thanks Jake for getting me some!

So...yeah, I ate super, duper shitty the ENTIRE vacation.  And it lasted into Monday as well because I was just so tired.  I could have slept a year it felt like.  But I'm back on track and with a loss!--More on that tomorrow.

But what was the real kicker, is that Monday, I found out my mom does indeed have breast cancer.  

I previously wrote about how Cancer is a Bitch but didn't want to give my mom's identity out because not everyone in the family knew.  

Now, I've been told that if there was such a thing as a 'good' breast cancer, she's got it.  It's early, but since she's had cancer in that region before there are some complications.  We'll find more about that next week.  

Needless to say, I was upset and sort of took a break from Facebook and any other form of social media.  I even stopped pinning for a bit on Pinterest!  What, what?!?!  I know, crazy!

But, I'm bitter.  I feel like my mom was dealt a horrendous cancer card with her lung cancer and she totally beat that 15 years ago.  She should get a free pass from any future cancer.  

Obviously, it's not how it works.  And it sucks...ass...big time.

For now, everyone is remaining super positive and I know she's got this in the bag.  I think more than anything, I just don't want cancer to be hidden in some deep, dark place and spring up again a few years from now and we are back at square one.  

So yeah, that was my super fun vacation.  

What was supposed to be totally relaxing, wasn't, but if anything, I feel closer to my family and feel beyond blessed to have my child!!